As a fellow cancer survivor (dx’d at 32 in 2020 while pregnant) this sucks. I’m so sorry. I’m so grateful to see you’ve embraced the dark humor. I hate that you’re no longer a cancer muggle and I’m so grateful how you honestly show up and share your life in all the seasons, good and bad.
Each morning I awake at 4 am here in Scotland and I fumble my way to the spare room trying not to wake my wife. I write pieces for my new Substack, then meditate before work, which is my form of prayer.
This morning I searched Substack for other writers for the first time and found your writing. Your humour and centeredness came through despite your challenges and for that you should be commended. I have made a small donation and for the next while I will meditate sending healing energy out into the ether towards your life force.
Hey! My SIL forwarded me your post and I felt compelled to comment. I am a 49 yo mother of 4 from North Dakota, and I was diagnosed with invasive ductal carcinoma 2 days after you! I did also find out that my armpit (lymph node) had a few cancer cells too already, but I am praying yours does not. I have my MRI next week and then the visits begin! I shall pray for you and your family as you navigate this detour in life! Much love from Bismarck!
Offered my children-chasing Mass (one of my favorite Sundays of the year!) for you and your family today, Laura. Not faithless, but believing be, indeed.
I found your substack when searching the main page here after posting my first post. I'm so sorry to hear about your diagnosis and I wish you all the best in your recovery. You are so young!
You're a great writer BTW. I just read your post about the death of your daughter. Wow. I cried. I can't imagine that, having been through infertility and 3 miscarriages myself, feeling to joy while your baby girl dies, knowing she is going to a better place. I wish I knew God that way. I'm uncomfortably agnostic. I want faith, I want to believe, I know it's good for me and society, but that just convinces me more to be skeptical because of my training as a scientist.
You inspired me to put "schedule mammogram" on my to do list for this week. I just turned 43 and my doctor has been bugging me about it at every check up since I turned 40, but I just haven't done it yet.
Good luck with the chemo! You can do this! Please be careful if you use medical MJ for dealing with chemo side effects. That stuff is addicting, especially the kind sold in shops in the USA these days, especially if you have a history of anxiety or insomnia. That's what my substack is about, my struggle with quitting weed.
I have read your posting for YEARS. They have helped me immensely as I (too) have traversed college at ND, miscarriage and troublesome fertility, late-term pregnancy loss, etc. So when I read this morning about cancer (not "your cancer...you don't want it, clearly!), I read your post with utter concern. I'm so sorry you are facing this, too. I have ALREADY prayed for you in all 4 of your areas of request. And I will continue to do so--I bet I'm one of many who may silently follow, praying and supporting from the sidelines. You HAVE been through such tough stuff and I admire your genuineness and how you express the deepest through your words. I have no doubt God will use this experience through you, too.
Tonight, I’m Whispering your name to the Lord, praying for complete healing and restoration and resting in the firm faith that only goodness and mercy will follow you all the days of you life. May the Lord bless and keep you. And make His face shine down upon you. You are so dearly loved! Thank you for bravely and valiantly sharing your story. We promise to pray for you.
And thank you for the encouragement to get my mammogram: we are the same age (42) and I have five daughters. So wild! Making the appointment asap.
As only God can do, your blog “popped” up in my feed. I’ve never heard of you, but after reading your authentic, sarcastic self I feel like I know you. Thank you for your transparency. As an ovarian cancer warrior, I appreciate it so much. I, too, will be praying for your armpits, your family and for your endurance. It’s going to be hard, but may the God of all hope show Himself to you in unimaginable ways. Hugs.🤍
Praying Romans 15:13 for you and your loved ones. It is one of the verses that encouraged me through our oldest son’s rare blood cancer and bone marrow transplant. He is a 10 year survivor. My sister is a 15 year triple negative breast cancer survivor, diagnosed the day after our daddy died and started chemo the day after his funeral. God us not asleep at the wheel. He is faithful and always with you through it all.❤️🙏🏼
I love you! Sitting on the toilet stunned, reading this and crying and praying and admiring you and your humor and tenacity all over again. You’ve got this. And I’ve got you in prayer. Hugs.
Please don’t skip the second opinion. Please. Please. Please. A second opinion changed the trajectory of my life in so many ways. It changed chemo and radiation. I wish I gotten it before surgery because it would have changed that. Don’t skip that step. Please don’t skip that step. So much love to you! And so, so many prayers.
Laura - you have my deepest prayers, along with your family, and your longtime and emerging care team. Come Holy Spirit, out with this damned spot! May this journey bring forth the joy found in God’s love and the generosity of your loving community.
As a fellow cancer survivor (dx’d at 32 in 2020 while pregnant) this sucks. I’m so sorry. I’m so grateful to see you’ve embraced the dark humor. I hate that you’re no longer a cancer muggle and I’m so grateful how you honestly show up and share your life in all the seasons, good and bad.
Love your perspective. So much love.
I love this feisty clever hilarious Laura. Thank God for college friends and husbands who love literary references. Out damned spot. Out, we ALL say.
Hey Luara,
Thank you for your words.
Each morning I awake at 4 am here in Scotland and I fumble my way to the spare room trying not to wake my wife. I write pieces for my new Substack, then meditate before work, which is my form of prayer.
This morning I searched Substack for other writers for the first time and found your writing. Your humour and centeredness came through despite your challenges and for that you should be commended. I have made a small donation and for the next while I will meditate sending healing energy out into the ether towards your life force.
Take care, you got this
Steve
Hey! My SIL forwarded me your post and I felt compelled to comment. I am a 49 yo mother of 4 from North Dakota, and I was diagnosed with invasive ductal carcinoma 2 days after you! I did also find out that my armpit (lymph node) had a few cancer cells too already, but I am praying yours does not. I have my MRI next week and then the visits begin! I shall pray for you and your family as you navigate this detour in life! Much love from Bismarck!
-Melanie
Praying for you, Laura!
Wishing you a speedy recovery! I know our medicine has improved over the years so you'll definitely have a fighting chance!
Offered my children-chasing Mass (one of my favorite Sundays of the year!) for you and your family today, Laura. Not faithless, but believing be, indeed.
I found your substack when searching the main page here after posting my first post. I'm so sorry to hear about your diagnosis and I wish you all the best in your recovery. You are so young!
You're a great writer BTW. I just read your post about the death of your daughter. Wow. I cried. I can't imagine that, having been through infertility and 3 miscarriages myself, feeling to joy while your baby girl dies, knowing she is going to a better place. I wish I knew God that way. I'm uncomfortably agnostic. I want faith, I want to believe, I know it's good for me and society, but that just convinces me more to be skeptical because of my training as a scientist.
You inspired me to put "schedule mammogram" on my to do list for this week. I just turned 43 and my doctor has been bugging me about it at every check up since I turned 40, but I just haven't done it yet.
Good luck with the chemo! You can do this! Please be careful if you use medical MJ for dealing with chemo side effects. That stuff is addicting, especially the kind sold in shops in the USA these days, especially if you have a history of anxiety or insomnia. That's what my substack is about, my struggle with quitting weed.
Laura,
I have read your posting for YEARS. They have helped me immensely as I (too) have traversed college at ND, miscarriage and troublesome fertility, late-term pregnancy loss, etc. So when I read this morning about cancer (not "your cancer...you don't want it, clearly!), I read your post with utter concern. I'm so sorry you are facing this, too. I have ALREADY prayed for you in all 4 of your areas of request. And I will continue to do so--I bet I'm one of many who may silently follow, praying and supporting from the sidelines. You HAVE been through such tough stuff and I admire your genuineness and how you express the deepest through your words. I have no doubt God will use this experience through you, too.
Tonight, I’m Whispering your name to the Lord, praying for complete healing and restoration and resting in the firm faith that only goodness and mercy will follow you all the days of you life. May the Lord bless and keep you. And make His face shine down upon you. You are so dearly loved! Thank you for bravely and valiantly sharing your story. We promise to pray for you.
And thank you for the encouragement to get my mammogram: we are the same age (42) and I have five daughters. So wild! Making the appointment asap.
As only God can do, your blog “popped” up in my feed. I’ve never heard of you, but after reading your authentic, sarcastic self I feel like I know you. Thank you for your transparency. As an ovarian cancer warrior, I appreciate it so much. I, too, will be praying for your armpits, your family and for your endurance. It’s going to be hard, but may the God of all hope show Himself to you in unimaginable ways. Hugs.🤍
Praying Romans 15:13 for you and your loved ones. It is one of the verses that encouraged me through our oldest son’s rare blood cancer and bone marrow transplant. He is a 10 year survivor. My sister is a 15 year triple negative breast cancer survivor, diagnosed the day after our daddy died and started chemo the day after his funeral. God us not asleep at the wheel. He is faithful and always with you through it all.❤️🙏🏼
I love you! Sitting on the toilet stunned, reading this and crying and praying and admiring you and your humor and tenacity all over again. You’ve got this. And I’ve got you in prayer. Hugs.
Please don’t skip the second opinion. Please. Please. Please. A second opinion changed the trajectory of my life in so many ways. It changed chemo and radiation. I wish I gotten it before surgery because it would have changed that. Don’t skip that step. Please don’t skip that step. So much love to you! And so, so many prayers.
Laura - you have my deepest prayers, along with your family, and your longtime and emerging care team. Come Holy Spirit, out with this damned spot! May this journey bring forth the joy found in God’s love and the generosity of your loving community.