Gosh, I've triple downed on prayers and making space and sending love and holding you close ever since you posted and (smartly) stepped away. A feral type rage for your pain rose up and I am so sorry for what you endured, endure. You are loved and held and there is no dressing the upcoming surgery up but I sure do hope you know how many of us are here. <3
Lots and lots of prayers. This is my first time to comment here though I’ve read every single update. The realness here struck me deeply. What you wrote about how getting to surgery was always the objective but that you felt 0% prepared really resonated. I know I’d feel the same way.
Please pray for me as I’m pregnant at age 46 with an unexpected babe and we will be doing some testing this week that scares me.
I had no idea that I was living in the halcyon days the one night that I stayed in the hospital after my double mastectomy. That said, a dear friend did outpatient - I gave her the horrified face you're used to seeing at the thought - and she said she was actually glad to go home right after. I pray the same for you.
I, too, felt completely unprepared going in - I usually research everything beyond the point of reason and did for almost everything else cancer related - but surgery scared me and I realized at the hospital that I actually had no idea what was happening next. And that turned out to be okay. It was also the first time I felt in control - goodbye, body part that tried to kill me! - and not as scary as I feared. Importantly, it was not particularly painful. I wouldn't go into detail unless you ask - and everyone's experience is different anyway - but please know that. I just "celebrated" the five year anniversary of my surgery. Honestly, I always have trouble remembering my diagnosis date, but I know my surgery date by heart. The day I could let at least some of the fear go. You are in my prayers!
Good for you for telling the truth. The person signing in after you probably felt relieved. “ Oh, we’re telling the truth here? Good! Here’s mine!” Anne Lamott taught me that being truthful and Christian were not mutually exclusive. You have continued that education. You do not have to be cheerful about your mastectomies. It’s a loss. Again. Something to grieve. Again. Who said “ each loss is every loss”? They were right. Bless you in your truthful path.
Praying for you and yours. Praying that surgery goes as well and as smoothly as possible for you: and that recovery is swift and complication free!
Please pray for me. I am struggling with health issues and as a result am dropping so many balls (kids, family, homeschooling). It's hard, really hard. Managed to snag a doctor's appointment the day before Thanksgiving and am hoping to find some answers and some relief.
You’ve been in my prayers and will be extra on my mind and heart on the 30th! Prayers for you and for all of your medical team that things go as smoothly as possible!
I’d greatly appreciate prayers as I navigate puzzling health issues and that I might be able to find a doctor that can guide me back towards health!
Your hair! I think it's lovely - power to you for owning it.
I will continue to pray that your body finds peace before the surgery. What a horrendous thing for her to endure. 💔 I will definitely be praying on the 30th - may it be the world's most boring, uneventful double mastectomy and recovery process.
Sorry for my delayed response. I will spare the details, but wanted to say 1) Love the new hair 2) Love the good news (obviously) 3) Love the truth-scrawl on the sign in sheet. And will spare you my soapbox on this and related topics.
I continue to pray for you each day. You look beautiful with your short hair! I love reading all of your posts; you are such an inspiration. May angels surround you on the 30th.
What a beautiful hot mess you are. There is no way, I suspect, to emotionally prepare for the surgery you are facing. It is amputation and womanhood and lifesaving all rolled up and messy. Stroke, caress, take a glorious nude by candlelight, tell them thank you for all they have been and done and meant to you. Bless & release. Imagine circles of women spiraling 🌀 around you, loving you and holding you next week. We will be there.
Oh also. This pic: 10/10 Lovely + Adorable.
Gosh, I've triple downed on prayers and making space and sending love and holding you close ever since you posted and (smartly) stepped away. A feral type rage for your pain rose up and I am so sorry for what you endured, endure. You are loved and held and there is no dressing the upcoming surgery up but I sure do hope you know how many of us are here. <3
Lots and lots of prayers. This is my first time to comment here though I’ve read every single update. The realness here struck me deeply. What you wrote about how getting to surgery was always the objective but that you felt 0% prepared really resonated. I know I’d feel the same way.
Please pray for me as I’m pregnant at age 46 with an unexpected babe and we will be doing some testing this week that scares me.
I had no idea that I was living in the halcyon days the one night that I stayed in the hospital after my double mastectomy. That said, a dear friend did outpatient - I gave her the horrified face you're used to seeing at the thought - and she said she was actually glad to go home right after. I pray the same for you.
I, too, felt completely unprepared going in - I usually research everything beyond the point of reason and did for almost everything else cancer related - but surgery scared me and I realized at the hospital that I actually had no idea what was happening next. And that turned out to be okay. It was also the first time I felt in control - goodbye, body part that tried to kill me! - and not as scary as I feared. Importantly, it was not particularly painful. I wouldn't go into detail unless you ask - and everyone's experience is different anyway - but please know that. I just "celebrated" the five year anniversary of my surgery. Honestly, I always have trouble remembering my diagnosis date, but I know my surgery date by heart. The day I could let at least some of the fear go. You are in my prayers!
SIMPLE PRAYERS...
JESUS,
PLEASE PUT LAURA
IN A PLACE TO EXPERIENCE THE MAXIMUM AMOUNT OF
LOVE FROM YOU RIGHT NOW.
AMEN
as shared by @fatherzachweber
And thank you for her fanflippingtastic miracle. Please keep ‘em coming! ❤️
Good for you for telling the truth. The person signing in after you probably felt relieved. “ Oh, we’re telling the truth here? Good! Here’s mine!” Anne Lamott taught me that being truthful and Christian were not mutually exclusive. You have continued that education. You do not have to be cheerful about your mastectomies. It’s a loss. Again. Something to grieve. Again. Who said “ each loss is every loss”? They were right. Bless you in your truthful path.
You are beautiful! I’m praying for you.
Praying for you and yours. Praying that surgery goes as well and as smoothly as possible for you: and that recovery is swift and complication free!
Please pray for me. I am struggling with health issues and as a result am dropping so many balls (kids, family, homeschooling). It's hard, really hard. Managed to snag a doctor's appointment the day before Thanksgiving and am hoping to find some answers and some relief.
You’ve been in my prayers and will be extra on my mind and heart on the 30th! Prayers for you and for all of your medical team that things go as smoothly as possible!
I’d greatly appreciate prayers as I navigate puzzling health issues and that I might be able to find a doctor that can guide me back towards health!
Laura, this post is beautiful in all its ugliness. Thanks for writing it. Sending you love and strength.
Your hair! I think it's lovely - power to you for owning it.
I will continue to pray that your body finds peace before the surgery. What a horrendous thing for her to endure. 💔 I will definitely be praying on the 30th - may it be the world's most boring, uneventful double mastectomy and recovery process.
I made a note on 11/30 to pray big time for you.
And I’ll take two “special intentions” please 🙏🏼🙏🏼 with gratitude for the invitation and because I know your prayers have a direct line!
But really, sharing total joy for how far you’ve come and hope and healing for what’s next ❤️
Sorry for my delayed response. I will spare the details, but wanted to say 1) Love the new hair 2) Love the good news (obviously) 3) Love the truth-scrawl on the sign in sheet. And will spare you my soapbox on this and related topics.
You do look lovely. I'm praying for November 30! (Also, your translation of "jerk" = "beloved child of God" made me actually laugh out loud.)
I continue to pray for you each day. You look beautiful with your short hair! I love reading all of your posts; you are such an inspiration. May angels surround you on the 30th.
What a beautiful hot mess you are. There is no way, I suspect, to emotionally prepare for the surgery you are facing. It is amputation and womanhood and lifesaving all rolled up and messy. Stroke, caress, take a glorious nude by candlelight, tell them thank you for all they have been and done and meant to you. Bless & release. Imagine circles of women spiraling 🌀 around you, loving you and holding you next week. We will be there.